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Sunday, March 18, 2007

Words are Important

I study words. Every day I hear hundreds of new words. Language is about words: subtle differences of meaning, connotations, power, intonation - words carry meaning. It's okay to understand the meaning of a word in generalities at first, but the actual specifics of the meaning of the word are important. Words are power.

"I don't understand why you used the word jihad in that sentence..."
"Oh! I didn't say jihad, I said jihat...you know, (english:) minimal pairs..."
[hearing a familiar linguistics term that I fully understand made me want to stand up on the table and shout for joy! But I didn't.]

Not only specificness in sounds, but in meaning. For example, today in Prof NagiH's class, we went over the difference between "bad" and "not good." We talked about euphamisms and "diplomacy" in words - as in, politically correctness. Specificness.

An obvious example is going to the bathroom. Every language has polite ways to express the need to go, and crude ways. It is important to know both so you can use them properly to get your point across. In English, you can say, "I need to go to the restroom." In Arabic, one equivalent of that is, "I need to go wash my hands." Interesting.

In Arabic, the political phrase for "American Government" is not hakooma amriki, it's idarat amriki, or "American Administration." In some contexts they are the same, but in others they have vastly different meanings: "the School Government" is usually a group of students elected by students to make decisions for students, whereas "the School Adminisitration" is usually a group of adults who are in charge of admissions, facilities, and employees of the school (etc).

I volunteered that the main difference between "government" and "administration" is the first is a word that describes something that does not change (even if there is a coup and your country goes from a Democratic government to a neo-theocratic-totalitarian-dictatorship government, it remains a government. I suppose the exception would be changing to anarchy - but even "governmentless" is a form of government, in a way. It is a description of the state of the government), while the second is something in a continual state of change.

I also ventured a guess towards the etymology of the word: the United States has the most political leverage in the world. It is powerful. When you describe an action taken by the United States, it is important to acknowledge that it is not necessarily the fact that it is a Democracy, or that we have the Constitution and the Bill of Rights etc. that makes the political decisions, but rather the people who were elected to power that are responsible for making them. "American Government" implies and connotes something altogether different from "American Administration."

"Impossible" and "unlikely"/"improbable" are worlds apart in meaning, and that difference is important to understand. You know?

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Omen

Amiyya is colloquial Arabic. FusHa is standard formal Arabic. The latter is used mostly in writing, the former in speaking. I understand/speak much better than I read/write.

"How can I learn FusHa?"
"Kate, first you've got to want it more than anything else, from within. Do you want to learn FusHa?"
"YES. I do! I need to! Then what do I do?"
"Then you have to read. Read, read, read. Read with Hibba. Read on your own. Read as much as you can. Learn the grammar, but you have to do it in a functional way. Reading will help you better and faster than anything else."
"Okay."

Prof NagiH's name comes from the same root as the verb "to succeed." I take that as an omen.

Monday, March 5, 2007

Critique of Criticism

...ممكن اكتب شو e باللغة العربية

:المفردات اليوم

تحرَش جنسي
مناسبة
اسلوب
خصخصة

التحرَش جنسي هو مشكلة فيالاجتماعية العربية
المستوة التي موجودة فيها هي تناسب فيي
ما احب الاسلوب الكاتب
يكبر الخصخصة فالاردن


I would like to dedicate this blog post to anybody who has ever used the word "constructive criticism".

Criticism is a judgement derived from thorough observation. Sometimes criticism has a negative meaning: "He never notices the good things in me! He's so critical! I wish he would stop criticizing me because I'm doing the best I can!" Sometimes, criticism can be useful because it can spur change. "His critique of my short story was very helpful; if I can eliminate the passive voice, maybe the storyline will flow easier!" This is what we call "constructive criticism."

I remember the first time I learned the phrase, "constructive criticism." After my 6th grade teacher explained it, she proceeded to point out mistakes that the student had made. Since then, somewhere in my brain I have this connection between, "constructive criticism," and "I did something wrong."

Unfortunately - or fortunately? - I am a perfectionist. I wear concealer to cover my blemishes. I set a high bar for myself, and try to achieve it. As a freshman in high school I made a vow to (try to) never feel ashamed of myself again. Even though I make tons and tons and tons and tons of mistakes, I do not feel ashamed when I know I am doing my best. I pour my whole soul into this Arabic language. I have been blessed with an abnormal amount of tenacity, "stick-to-it-ive-ness." I am constantly critiquing my self, and telling myself what/where/how I can do and be my idea of better.

Criticism is useful when it can lead to positive change. I am infinitely more self-aware than others may think, but I do not claim to know all of my flaws. When Prof. NagiH corrects me, an inevitable occurance in an Arabic as a Second Language class, it's extremely helpful. I learn from correcting my mistakes, moving forward, working from the criticism that he gives me.

Why is Prof. NagiH's criticism more useful to me than, for example, somebody telling me that the pictures on my blog could be better, or that I could be a better writer? Several reasons:

Prof. NagiH is (duh) better than me at Arabic. I absolutely respect his criticism. I believe what he says, and value it.
A certain aforementioned person is not a better writer or photographer than me. His criticism is not from a base of deep knowledge about the subject, but rather his own - albeit informed - average opinion. I do value other people's opinions, but - sorry - I trust opinions of specialists in the designated field more.

[Ceci dit, I need to improve my both my writing and photography.]

Prof. NagiH does a lot of nodding and smiling - go to ANY foreign language class, and you will find that the more positive reinforcement, the more the teacher gives out aseenti-s, tamam-s and momtaz-es, the better the student-teacher relationship will be (not to mention class dynamic), and the more respect the student will have for the teacher's criticism. The main consequence of all this is real learning, and real motivation to continue learning.

Fortunately for linguists and their profession, the subtleties of language are ENDLESS. Words are not the only tool used in communication - and one thing linguists do is define the layers of meaning behind the words.

I am sensitive to these layers.

Prof. NagiH does not think we are stupid. His criticism is to help us learn. It's his job to criticize us. Friends criticizing friends leads me to ask, "why is it important for them to criticize me? What do they want out of it? Is there some hidden implication in what they are trying to tell me?"

For example:
"Kate, your laugh is really loud."

The sentence isn't necessarily just an evaluation of the volume of my laughter. Depending on tone, context, and stress of words, it could mean lots of things.

"Your laugh is really loud and I wish you would shut up."
"Kate, I've told you a million times how loud your laugh is. Do I seriously have to tell you again?"
"Congratulations, Kate, you won the contest for World's Loudest Laugh."
"No, no, I didn't mean your laugh was quiet! It is really loud!"

"You could take better pictures," could mean:

"I expect better from you because you are intelligent and capable!"
"I'm disappointed because I know you aren't doing your best."
"You should be doing better."
"Your pictures suck and I hate them all."
"You should just give up now."

Expressing criticism in a clear and direct way minimizes dangerous misinterpretations/miscommunications.

Language learning is hard. Daunting. Like a mountain. Especially Arabic - you can't fudge your way like French, and, at least for native English speakers, grammatical structures are not second-nature.

Learning a language requires you to recognize both your mistakes and your successes. It's scary to learn that the little lines and circles above the word can change the ENTIRE meaning (ex: from passive to active: "The book was written by Kate." "Kate wrote the book." In arabic, the only difference is the vowelling), and to realize that I haven't EVER payed much attention to them.

If I were to focus all my thoughts on all of the things I don't know about Arabic, I'd be on the next plane out of this country. It would be too difficult. Even I, Kate Vasicek, "Stick-To-It-Like-Super-Glue" fifth-grade motto girl, would give up. People like Prof. NagiH with his infinite patience make this place for me. The "Wow! She speaks Arabic really well!" statements keep me confident, and able to pick myself each time I make a mistake.

I love this language, and I'm going to conquer it. I love the complexities of ammiya (spoken Arabic) and the depth of meaning found in fusHa (written Arabic). I am confident of my ability to learn both, and I will continue to strive to learn.

SUMMARY:
Telling me that I suck motivates me to figure out why you would say so, not how I can change to be better.
Telling me that I am capable of better will not motivate me unless I respect you.
Focusing on my flaws without any acknowledgement of my accomplishments lessens my respect for you.
Arabic is really hard, but a mixture of positive and critical feedback helps me learn.

It would be interesting to analyze the difference between "to critique" and "to criticize" - both denotations and connotations.

Monday, February 26, 2007

Language Learning is a Bicycle

2.24.07

I was once told by a dear friend that I should write a book on language acquisition. I’m not really sure what it means to be a “goal-oriented” person; if it means that the action of forming a goal is enough motivation/incentive to drive its completion, I am definitely not “goal-oriented.” The goal is nothing special itself; the idea of it, the interest in it, the knowledge it apports me…I am a child of the 18th Century, le Siecle de Lumiere. Were it not for my allergies, you could classify me as “feline,” – insatiable curiosity. I am interest-driven. My list of goals is a towering sky-scraper next to the doll-house of goals accomplished. (I feel like a snob saying this, but I want to point out that just because I have a lot of unfinished goals, and I haven’t finished one billionth of the goals that I have, doesn’t mean that I haven’t accomplished quite a few things in my 20 years of earth life.) The friend who told me I need to write a book on language acquisition probably did so because he is information-driven. It is possible that someday my N.Y. Times Best Seller “The Art of Learning a Foreign Language,” (two birds with one stone!) – will fall into his hands, and we’ll both enjoy the euphoria of basking in our personal motivation-system.

“First, I want you to read the article, get the general gist of it, and then we’ll go over the vocabulary questions. Wadi3?”

I totally agreed with Professor NajiH, but since language acquisition interests me, I put on my well-worn journalist cap, and asked, “Why?”

“What do you mean?”

“I mean, why is it more important for us to read the whole article without caring about the individual words? What makes doing it that way better?”

“Kate! Kate, Kate, Kate. It is DEFINITELY better to learn languages this way. In my experience teaching students a foreign language, I have found that you will get more out of reading if you try to understand what’s going on in a general way first, and then dissect the individual words. The article is like an ocean, or a lake, and the words themselves are fish. First, you take your boat out onto the water, you sail to a good spot, and then you reel in the fish. You can gut them, cook them, and eat them…”

Prof NagiH said this with such passion and sincerity; that alone would have made me crack up, but because my information-driven friend and I had already used the ocean-fish metaphor in previous conversations, it took a lot of self control to not go into hysterics.

I came nearly halfway around the world to learn Arabic. I started with three goals:
1. Live with an Arab family
2. Take Arabic classes in Yarmouk’s language center

3. Work for an NGO

I have been here for a little over two weeks, and learned hundreds (literally) of words from living with the Hammouri’s, or I should rather say, from being bint Hammouri il-xhamees (they call me their “fifth daughter”).

I didn’t expect the language center to be that good, but it turns out that I have the best Arabic professor in the world. Professor NajiH’s teaching style seems to have been fine-tuned in the pre-existence to compliment my language learning style. He is expressive, funny, uses hand motions, does not belittle or make fun of mistakes (which doesn’t mean he doesn’t laugh if something turns out to be a funny mistake), makes sure that everybody in the class is clear on what’s going on while at the same time not letting the class’s pace slow down to a snail-tread. Professor NajiH is my hero.

I have an unfair advantage, English being my mother-tongue. If the Turks look confused, Prof NajiH will give a synonym and at least one of them (usually all) will get it (I don’t know where they got their enormous Arabic vocabularies, but I would willingly pay double at the same store in a heartbeat!), and explain it to the others in Turkish. If either I, or the Spaniard, don’t get it, he will first give a synonym, and upon seeing our blank faces, a synonym in English. Happily, English and Spanish have worlds of cognates, but translation strips words of their power. I love speaking English.

How rude, I don’t think I’ve introduced you; my classmates here are Nagihan, Jihad, and Aischa from Turkey (all from different cities, one from Istanbul, the others from cities whose names I’ve seen on a map maybe once in my life), and Omar is from Spain. I am from “America”.

Side note: I think it’s interesting how Arabs rarely say, “The United States of America,” and never say, “the States” – unless they’ve been there. The most common word for my country is, “America.” I am amrikia (GoH!!! – “original!”). “Where are you from?” “I’m from America.” Even typing it in English is funny to me – just slightly off. I would never say that. The word ‘America’ by itself is for July 4th and Fireworks and Apple Pie and Flag bumper-stickers. Don’t you think?

I have done a lot of thinking about how I learn languages. First of all, because I am interest-driven, languages automatically attract me. There is motion, movement, change – when you learn physics, you are stuck in a box. When you learn a language, you explore hundreds of new boxes. I could learn physics in Arabic, for example. (Yeah, if I were completely out of my MIND…last time I learned anything about physics was in 8th Grade Science with Ms. Newton!).

Not only do I have the unfair advantage of English, but I also have a limitless interest in language-acquisition. Arabic fascinates me.

I like to give myself many difficult and challenging goals, hoping that I will attain a handful of them, attacking it with the attitude of, “You should be able to do them all,” but then when I don’t, instead of self-mutilation, I just make more goals. For example, some of my current language goals are:
Do all the homework
Write down how many hours I spoke Arabic
Write at least 10 new vocab words I learned each day
Write a conversation I had
Write a journal-type entry in Arabic daily
Watch al-Jazeera in English and Arabic
Read 1 news Article in Arabic daily
Read the Book of Mormon out loud daily
Go over the class notes with someone in the family daily
Do exercises from il-kitaab t3lm il 3rbee 2 every day

These types of goals change on a weekly basis. For example, I noticed that the goal to read a news article every day in Arabic was sort of stupid. I don’t really want to buy a newspaper for one article, and I can’t read it fast enough standing in the Tunnel il Jam3a waiting for Hibba to stop using the phone in the cell-phone store (more on that later). So instead I made a goal to underline every word I don’t understand from the homework reading, and circle the ones that seem more important, or that come up multiple times, and then learn them.

It’s such a personal process, language learning. I constantly have to evaluate my progress, effort, and goals. This process is energizing and filling. I drink it up. I love Arabic.

I think the process of language acquisition is like a bicycle. First, you have to get on it.

“Hey, I have 4 credits free – why don’t I take Arabic and see how I like it?”

You have to learn how to ride. That takes a long time. Some people fall down so often that they never really learn how to ride one, but if you start learning young, it is not terribly difficult. It takes balance, patience, and tough knees.

I feel like my experience with French taught me how to ride the bicycle. Just because French is a Red (did anybody else hear about France’s new socialist candidate for prime minister? Or see what she wore when she introduced her platform?) bike and Arabic is a Green-White-Red-and-Black bike doesn’t mean I use different muscles and motions to ride it.

The wheels are the interesting part: 3teefee (no English words come to my mind right now that express the meaning this one does in Arabic…it means something like feeling, heart, opposite of logic, sensing) feelings are like a bead on one of the wheel’s spokes. I am a feely person, but even if you aren’t, you still have a bead on your spoke. Feelings are always involved no matter where Myers-Briggs puts you. My bead is very very very very big.

It’s like this. You get on the bike, you grasp the handlebars, you push off from the ground, and start to peddle. Your peddling is the amount of work you do – learning vocabulary words, doing the homework, speaking x amount of hours etc. When you peddle a bike, and you’re balanced, the bike is going to move. When you work, and you work the right way for you, you will learn the language.

Your feelings are directly related to the language-learning process. Sometimes you will feel extremely intelligent and good about yourself and your ability to conquer the language. Sometimes, the amount of vocabulary that you lack will be so depressing that you may wonder why you even got on the bike in the first place. The beads go around and around, up and down. Your emotions will do this, too, as you learn a foreign language. They will be cyclical.

When I was very young, I remember staring at the beads on my brother’s bike. He would go around and around the caul-de-sac, and the orange bead would go up and down, up and down. If I had remembered more from Mrs. Newton’s class, I could describe the action with more specific vocabulary. Something to do with centrifugal force? I stared at that thing for hours. It was interesting to me how if my brother slowed down, the bead would fall down to the center of the spoke. If he sped up, it stayed closer towards the tire of his bike, and became a beautiful orange streak. However, the position of the bead didn’t seem to depend on his speed as much as his balance.

No matter what you do, the bead will be in motion; if you want an emotionally stable goal, language learning is not for you. The trick is to find a peddling pace and equilibrium that doesn’t jolt the bead up and down the spoke. Anybody can handle changing emotions (we are, after all, human beings!), but rapid jerks of mood swings can cause depression, self-pity, and feelings of failure.

I would definitely say that my language learning has been cyclical. In an email to my dad, I described how my feelings and emotions seem to be on a 24-hour cycle. I feel like if I have a fantastic day, the next one is almost definitely doomed to be miserable. “Never feel homesick again,” or “Never feel stupid again,” are dumb, unattainable goals. However, I do have goals like, “Make the space between attacks of homesickness longer,” and “When you feel stupid, control your negative voice.”

Despite its many challenges, riding the bike is worth it. I’m biking up the mountain of the Arabic language. Someday, I want to look down on the breathtaking biblical landscape and feel the shivers down my spine as I imagine the men and women who passed here before – the sun setting over the Al-Aqsa mosque…incredible.

*The bicycle has been equated to “language acquisition” several times in this post, however I would like to clarify what that entails. To me, Arabic is not translated English. It is the whole experience of being here, walking in the streets, reading the signs, not letting the Taxi driver overcharge me, learning to live in a culture that doesn’t believe in privacy, drinking water that I am not sure is healthy for me, using bathrooms that I am sure aren’t, facial expressions, proxemics, political ideas, the weather, the cost of living… ‘language’, to me, is not reserved for the dead philosophers who wrote great ideas way back when – it’s a living, breathing being. I’ll save that metaphor for later, though.